Presented by: Xenogears: God and Mind
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Ice-cold gusts of wind cut through their thin, soaked rags of
clothes like razor-sharp knives and the rain continued to come
down on them like troublesome needles of water when they ran for
their lives. It was the price they had to pay for rebelling
against the rulers's iron oppression and manipulative religion
that enchained free will, the last sunbeam of hope for a human's
soul. Ever since their first opposition their endangered, doomed
lives constantly staggered between life and death as they were
hunted down like defenceless preys.
A group of strangely dressed people holding a large throne
pursued them like an approaching shadow of death. Not even your
most traumatizing and sickening nightmares were capable of
bringing forth such a disgusting creature like the one on top of
the throne. It made you rather want to poke your eyes out than to
behold the horrible sight of this living cadaver. A cruel and
sadistic smirk disfigured his ugly, misshapen head even more when
he unleashed luminous, pearl-white sparks of lightning ether. The
small lightning sparks of ether quickly enlarged and turned into
deadly, jagged tentacles of lightning ether that darted towards
the fleeing duo and succeeded in hitting one of them.
* * * * *
An excruciating pain riddled both her body and soul as she
knew that it was forever too late for her. Her fatally wounded
body crashed to the wet, stone-hard ground in a heap and the
eerie red of blood started to flow from several heavily injured
parts of her body.
Abel's frantic grief and panic-stricken despair were reflected
back in his scream for her and in an instant he was with her. She
felt his trembling arms protectively encircling her as if he was
determined to keep her from sinking away in the unknown,
unfathomable vale of death. Abel held her tight in his shaking
arms while he incessantly begged her to live in a way that made
her soul bleed even more than her body. The last time she could
ever hear, see or feel him...Tears escaped from her eyes when
this heart-rending thought flashed through her mind.
No...She couldn't allow herself to wallow in her own selfish,
cowardly anguish! Her life was and still is tied together with
other people's lives, especially with the most beloved gem of her
heart...Abel. With the last leftovers of her strength that were
quickly oozing away due to her enormous loss of blood she would
send the encouraging light of lively hope in his mournful heart
With huge efforts and with blood coming out of her throat she
managed to throw out some of her final words that were longing to
be freed before they would fall in the bottomless pit of
"Abel...I will always...love you..."
Her lips moved but her voice was so weak and inaudible that it
erased her most important message to him. Only a waterfall of
blood poured out of her throat when she desperately fought to
release her last ray of hope and love to him. It was too
late...Her precious words of hope and love turned into undying
tears which never expressed sadness would be locked up forever in
her heart and weigh on her soul for an eternity.
An incredible mental pain that she had never experienced
before completely defeated her when she felt how her crying soul
was torn off from the earthly life when she could see herself
lying in Abel's arms while he continuously shed tears for her.
But even now, only one thought incessantly twirled in her mind
while she was ascending to the place that humans feared the most,
to the land of the ultimate unknown.
"Abel...I will always...love you..."
* * * * *
"Elhaym...Please stay with me...Please don't leave
His faintly smouldering flame of hope died away together with
his words as he buried his tear-stained face in her beautiful
russet hair while he still held her in his arms. He continued to
cry while he closed his eyes as if the unbearable cruelty of
reality wouldn't be able to touch him when he did so. He kissed
her on her lips for the very last time but he only felt the
bitter rust taste of blood. The terrible, heartbreaking image of
his beloved that he saw when he opened his eyes would be carved
into his soul forever.
She was already dead. Her eyes were closed and all the life
and expression were drained from her once so heart-warming and
kindly smiling face. Blood still streamed out of her throat and
dripped on his hands, on his cowardly hands that couldn't save
her, and her inerasable blood would adhere to his hands forever.
"Oh Elhaym...I wasn't able to save you...It was all my
He sobbed harder, tears painting red streaks on his wet face
while he continued to shoot merciless, self-reproaching arrows of
accusation at himself. Without her, his life was only an
infinite, loveless void...he didn't want to live anymore...
He looked up at the grey, disconsolate sky that looked exactly
like a mirror of his own hopeless loneliness while at the same
time the triumphant, sadistic gazes of Emperor Cain and his Gazel
servants pierced through his soul. The following moment he felt
how flashing, serrated streaks of lightning burned through his
flesh. The last thing that was able to reach his memory before
everything went nightblack was that his profusely bleeding body
collapsed on top of Elhaym's.
* * * * *
"I'm going to hell."
He was moving away from the earth and knew that the ghastliest
fear that was slumbering inside him would soon awaken to last for
a terrible eternity. Even if he, Elhaym and their
fellow-sufferers had succeeded in freeing themselves from the
enslaving yoke of Emperor Cain's domination during their earthly
life, even then they would never be able to escape from the
ruthless fate that they would be forever grinded down in the
Like Emperor Cain said, there were only seats for the chosen
ones in God's paradise...And there was only an unknown agony
awaiting the ill-stared ones in the immeasurable cage without
escape possibilities that was the afterlife...And it was because
of his pathetic weakness that Elhaym's future drowned in the
horribleness of death...
"Oh Elhaym...You gave me all the loving goodness that
resided in your heart...But the weak coward that I was I could
never do anything for you..."
Suddenly a creepy, multicoloured vortex swallowed him up and a
few seconds later he was flying with a dizzying speed through its
sinister, endless corridors. It felt as if he was inside the body
of a pitiless snake that would eventually devour its unlucky prey
at that prey's final destination. But eventually the long, creepy
vortex tunnel spat him out and he landed in a seagreen
environment with a rippling, watery floor. He discovered that he
was stark naked and a bitter mixture of embarrassment, fear,
sorrow and loneliness made him feel more vulnerable than ever.
But then a strange, indescribable serenity and heartfelt hope
soothed his troubled soul when he noticed an odd, ivorywhite
light with fluorescent, yellowgreen edges that was shimmering at
the aquamarine sky like a gorgeous jewel. But the unbelievable
truth he saw when he looked behind him really stretched the
limits of imagination...
* * * * *
They could barely see each other's nude forms through the
blinding mist of tears before their eyes...But this time it were
tears born from a profound, enrapturing joy...A gigantic tidal
wave of unbounded happiness engulfed them when they threw
themselves into their arms. All the tormenting sadness inside
them quickly ebbed away when they let their tearful lips met
while they held each other tight.
They awoke from their fairy-like dream and were transported
back to reality when a mysterious voice coming from the
shimmering light interrupted their loving moments together.
"Who are you? Are you God?" Abel asked a bit
"Yes and no. I'm some kind of universal energy...In one
word...The Wave Existence...I'm the source of all living things
but all living things are also the source of my existence...I'm
also a part of you..." the enigmatic voice explained.
"What...What do you want from us? Why is it time?"
Elhaym asked in a surprised tone.
"Precious time is shrinking even as I speak, so I can't
explain much. Your destiny is to liberate all of us...You have to
cut off the puppet strings that enslave all of us...yourselves,
the whole humanity and...even myself. You must leave the Path of
Sephirot now...Step into your next lives and make the future
shine for all of us..." the Wave Existence answered while
both the audibleness of its arcane voice and the brightness of
its luminous shape were flowing away.
"Wait! There's more I need to ask you! I can't fulfil
such an important destiny on my own!" Abel exclaimed with a
voice saturated with despair and insecurity.
"On your own, you are only the pained, piteous half of an
incomplete and broken heart...But you will always be together
with Elhaym...Together you are one...You won't be on your
own...Your intertwined souls are forever destined to be
together...But you really must go now..." the Wave Existence
said right before both its appearance and voice completely melted
Strange phenomena entered the realm of reality again when a
single, snowy white wing sprouted out of Abel's back and the same
wonder happened to Elhaym. A sweet, encouraging smile decorated
Elhaym's beautiful face when she gently took Abel's hand. They
were only the imperfect halves of a true, two-winged angel so
they had to held each other in order to fly up to the sky where a
new future was waiting for them.
"Even if all the misery of the world falls upon us...As
long as we are together, we won't be crushed!" Elhaym said
while she continued to smile at Abel.
Sparkling hope had found the way to their intertwined souls
and hearts again. They knew that no calamity, distance or time
would ever be powerful enough to defeat their immortal love for
Author's notes: In the game, Abel called Elly
"Elhaym" and not "Elly" in the scene where
emperor Cain killed Elly so that's the reason why Abel also calls
Elly "Elhaym" and not "Elly" in this fic. If
you don't believe me then go watch this scene again or read the
Xenogears script and you will see that Abel called Elly
"Elhaym" instead of "Elly" in that scene.
Oh, and Abel and Elly were lovers at that point in the
game. You can see that they were both grown-up and about the same
age in the scene where emperor Cain killed Elly.
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